The Breastfeeding Dilemma

I hate breastfeeding. I know, taboo right? I know many love it, and I'm happy for them. I know many can't, and I feel for them.

I appreciate being able to breastfeed, it came very easy for me, I've had no mastitis as of yet, no cracked bleeding nipples (blech!), however, I still hate it. I feel like I have a beautiful, adorable little parasite sucking the very life right out of my body, clawing and wiggling and kicking me in the face (thats right, kicking. In the face.) Not to mention the BITING! Seriously mother Nature? We have to offer up our sensitive bits to be chomped on? Not cool.

I feel like my crunchy peers would judge me negatively for this, which is silly really. I still did it, I know the amazing benefits we have learned about so far and have no doubt there are tons we have yet to discover. For that reason alone it has been worth every horrible moment. My goal was to keep it up for at least a year, the bare minimum. For my first, he pretty much self-weaned at about 14 months, it was fairly easy, I stopped offering and he stopped asking, he barely noticed. My second however, she's now 13 months and there is no end in sight. She's a Pulsatilla baby that's for sure. She's whiney, needs extra attention around the clock, sensitive, quick to cry, slow to stop, a beautiful, funny, happy little girl, but a handful nonetheless!

With regard to breastfeeding though, I'm just done. She has both top and bottom teeth now and grinds them while nursing, it's awful! I'm between a rock and a hard place, just hoping she loses interest soon! I hope someone out there who also hates breastfeeding feels less alone after reading this! It's ok to hate it, not everything we do for our kids we are going to love, but as long as we get through it to benefit them in the end, it's all that matters. My kids will always be more important than any discomforts I may have.

Happy (eventual!) Weaning!

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